Dear Diary
Today is September 25 and for some reason I'm still struggling with who I am. I can't figure out what I want out of my life. People say at my age I should have figured out what I want but that doesn't seem to be my case. To be honest I'm scared if what I want doesn't work.
I know I should be grateful to be alive and have food on the table but that doesn't seem enough for me. I need more from life but where do I start. I don't want to just live and survive I want to feel alive.
Dear diary, I am going to be 29 years old soon and as a girl of that age the society is expecting me to be a certain way. To be thinking of marriage and kids, but to be honest that has never been my end goal in life. If later it happens I get married or have kids so be it and I'll love them. Though I do not want to have them because the society says it's time and that's how life works. I want to stick to my life but as you know going against the norm always comes with challenges.
Dear diary, what should I do with my life. Where is my life going?
Dear Diary
Today is the 26th of September and I was late at work. I put my alarm for 5 am but didn't hear it ring so I woke up at 7:12 am when I start work at 7:30am. So I had to take uber instead of the bus. This is the time I get frustrated with my financial situation because I can't afford Uber but then I work till late at night so it's been hard waking up in the morning.
Though waking up early has been hard I've now made it a habit of listening to morning messages either from Sarah Jake's Roberts or random messages on YouTube. Recently I've listened to a few messages ( not sure what to call them) from Denzel Washington the actor yes. He's a wise man and if he got where he is I'd think he did something right so yea I like listening to him in the morning. Oh one thing that really got me was when he said no one really cares about you ( now I'm confused wether it was him or Oprah). Anyway it really hit home cause I do find myself caring what my close people will think but apparently everyone is busy with their own problems that they are not even thinking about me ( oh yea now I remember this was Oprah), Denzel Washington was saying to know when to let go of people. Basically some people in our lives are pulling us back even though they mean no harm but it's okay to love them from a far.
It seems I have a lot to tell you but that will be all for today.